I will done the work of enlighten human
2003.12.01
When i review the sentences that i wrote down, i find, it changed, it can't express what i want to say when writing them, these sentences appears to be the words come from a innocent and passionate child now, most of the things i want to say is lost, if you use your experience to understand my words, you will only get the understanding which fit yourself, our experience are different, but my experience can't be write down, I can't tell these experience to you. The truth need to be taught face by face! So we can share the experience. It is said that only 38% of the truth can be written down, right. How to get the other portion of the truth? You need to build your own experience and be thinking.

I know your feeling after read my articles, such as, when you see i say i am enlightened, you just think this is a lovely boy, but i mean i am really enlightened, you lack the experience of enlightened, so you can't understand what i say, you use your experience to understand it, then you think you just meet a funny boy.

My younger brother is very tall now, I was always much taller than him in the childhood, now he grow up so quickly :) In the other side, i know i can still grown taller, in fact, it is, i am still growing. It seems i will have a perfect body soon, strong, agile, don't have big abdomen as Richard Stallman, perfect eyes compare to Nietzsche and many other philosophers :)

Larry Wall's essay about perl is funny, those graphic symbols are very interesting.

"He who wishes to be greatest among you must become the servant of all."

I understand why all geniuses will have miserable life at last now. I know i will have miserable life in my later life too. In the past 20 years, my life is full of happiness, happier than everyone else i met, this should can last for several years more...then, my miserable life will begin. Why? Because genius will never be contented, when he is a child, he is very happy to explore the world, but he will soon understand the world, he read books, then he understand what is said in the books, he pursue love, by his deepest love, he understand love soon, then love can't make him contented, then he begin to read other geniuses' books, it is very happy when he is absorbing their thought, but, soon, he understand these things said by these geniuses, then, his miserable life come, he can't absorb new things from the other geniuses now, he need to create the spiritual food by himself, this will be very miserable, can you imagine the life that if you want to eat food, you need to create the food by yourself, as you can't find the food from others? His desire for truth make this inevitable, he will always be hungry! When he is died, the spiritual food created by him for himself will feed the next genius, genius's value most lie on helping another genius. Nietzsche and Otto Weinigner's books make me so happy, then i know what am I now. If I have ever see one people is happier than me in the past 20 years, i won't say i am a genius. What should I do? I am only 20, I don't want to be Otto Weininger that commit suicide at the age of 23, this will be my first dangerous. Kevin Solway give me the advise to slow down my development, now i find i developed too rapid in the last month, too rapid that make me happy and fear it. I eat the food too fast, and I am very good at digesting these food, but if I don't start to train my ability of creating food, i will starve to death soon, If I keep my speed of reading, i will read over all those literature books, science books, philosophy books soon, three years are enough for me to read over those hundreds of good books. I need to slow down....Who can help me when i decide to commit suicide? The familyship, the friendship, the love, all of they can't help me, although I have the warmest family, the best friend, the best lover, I have already break these things by the truth which i already known. Only I can help myself, i need to slow down... Or, another genius, boy, if you find while you are reading Nietzsche and Otto Weininger's books, or my articles, you are very exciting and happy, and you can understand them easily, please contact me, although i know i am moving my danger to you, we can help each other. To find another genius, is almost impossible ago, but now, the Internet should can make this possible, if there exists another contemporary genius.

In the next three years, I should not read Nietzsche and Otto Weingers's books, it is lucky that i only read the translation of their books presently, I should not go to the genius forum and read those tens of thousands of articles, although i know that will be a big treasure to me. Can i hold my desire of these treasure for three years? I am just learning German to read Nietzsche and Otto Weininger's original books eagerly...I won't download their books tomorrow, but can i hold it for three years? I am reading books day by day, one book is finished only by several days, then another, too happy while reading, then...I will study computer science and physics and many other nature science learnings in the next two years, read literature books, then at the third year, start to read other philosophers' books, this can help me to train my ability of creating spiritual food. Then i can read Nietzsche and Otto Weininger's books.

It take me 20 years to find i am different from the others, i always thought that others should be the same as me, then I find every other boys who play with me, their achievement become bad soon, but i am still the same. I develop free software, i thought everyone should thinks the same as me, then i find only one boy develop free software so enthusiastic in China. It is only me wear the normal clothes in thousands of students after the washing when we are doing the military training, the officer said we should still wear the dirty uniform clothes, we all don't like it, but only i do what i think is right. I know i am different form everyone i met now. I always try to find a stronger people, admire him very much, but i always past them quickly. I find i am alone now. I tell other boys, Nietzsche and Otto Weininger's books are the best books i have ever see, it is very useful and will make you very happy while reading, they skimmed for several pages and get puzzled, then i know we are different.

It is funny, i always think there is not genius exists in the world ago. You can imagine that a boy looks at others in the world for 20 years, and said:"There is not genius exists in the world, i am sure of this", then, suddenly, he noticed himself, and he is enlightened suddenly. Einstein says that he despise any authority when he is young, but the world just make he become another authority as the punishment for his despising authority, it is likewise :)

The first thing i need to done is that make myself still alive three years later. I am always so happy and enthusiastic about life, it should be me that most impossible to commit suicide, but it is always those enthusiastic people commit suicide. I must do it, i must slow down my development, i know i get too high in some field now, but the root is still not deep enough. Kevin Solway's mail is so valuable to me.

I need to avoid Nietzsche and Otto Weininger's books. They make me too happy and exciting, them are too dangerous for the present me.

I need to save myself first, after i am sure i can alive, i can start to help human, help others.

I must trust my roommates are not idiot(I have this feeling sometimes when i hear their words or see what they are doing, i said out these words is just being honestly, not scolding, most time i thought them as lovely little children), they are already the elite of Chinese students, then, the only answer is, i am a genius.

Why it is i just being the genius? Who knows. The little probability just happened.

2003.12.02
Physics and many other nature science are only one small part of the truth, most truth lie in the human itself. What i am good at is understanding myself, then i understand the others easily too.

If you can do anything, you will do nothing. I won't do the gnu project, Linux kernel, quake, it is easy for me to done these things, my intelligence is easy for me to understand the theory it required, my will can make me easily persist for many years on doing it, and do the devotion is just what i like. But, do the gnu project is the mission of Richard Stallman in his life, the same for Linus Torvarld, John Carmack, if they don't do these things, they are not them, these things is not my mission in my life, so i should not grab their mission. Tang Hao is preparing the JDict project, StarDict in Java, it is easy for me to done it in one week or two, but i will leave and help Tang Hao to done it, because, to done it, will be very helpful for Tang Hao to break one of his limit, and may help he to achieve enlightenment one day too.

Why Bodhisattva help the people but Buddha don't, because Buddha know the miserable life on a normal people is important to that people, it is just his/her life, it is not miserable in fact, if you grab it, force to change it, such as give many money to a poor old woman, you will kill her. Why Buddha take the marriage to a woman even after he is enlightened? Because he find if he don't, that woman will commit suicide, he is full of the love, so make he won't love anyone, because if he love one woman, he must drop the love of others. He leave she, there will be a lover of that woman, so he can go, but when a woman really need his love, such as the woman who may commit suicide, he will help her by his love, devote his love to her.

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Mu-nan, a Zen Master passed a valuable book onto his successor Shoju, as a symbol of him having received the silent teaching, but Shoju had no interest for such things and threw it in the fire. Mu-nan, who never had been angry before, yelled "What are you doing!" Shoju shouted back "What are you saying!"
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Then Zen is died.

Compare to the western philosophers, Chinese traditional ideology help me a lot. Compare to Buddha, Lao Tze and many ancient thinkers, science can help me :) Being a Chinese is so cool, if I can surmount my disadvantage as in the China environment, then my advantage as in China environment will take very big effort.

It is very boring that one people always saying himself being a genius, but, please forgive me, i just wrote down what i thought honestly. And you know, i am only only saying this, i am doing some other things, i am thinking.

I need to try to start write my articles in German, so this can stop another genius from reading my articles too fast :)

The room is full of my laughter, they smile to each other for my strange laugh :) I always burst in laugh for no reason, or the reason they can't known :) My laugh looks almost the same as giggle, but i tell them this is the laugh of wisdom, they have to agree on this :)

When i go out, i look at here and there with my smiling eyes, i look at the other people's face, their expression is very funny to, which make me burst into smile that i need to nip my lip, i know the thought in in their head :) Once you see a boy with very childish smile, don't just thought he as a child, his thought is much deep than you can imagine.

Han Han is a genius, he wrote several literature books when he is at the senior high school, I am the same age as he, i have read his "San Chong Men", the front part is good, the end part is a little boring. It is said that he is corrupted now, he earn many money by publishing his books, this just corrupted him, his view on girlfriend is shallow, he like racing car, because racing can remove his consciousness. The genius is destroy by the society which give he too much fame when he is still very young. I can understand Han Han easily, as i am a genius too, but i am the philosophy genius, the genius of geniuses, maybe i can help Han Han, readers, if you acquaint Han Han, give my articles to him, this may can help him.

Yu Jie is a genius, he wrote many good books, but i hear that he become a Christian now. It is a pity, China want genius eagerly, but it is always they destroyed the genius they find, and they don't know genius will surely don't fit for their taste. I am lucky that i already know how to avoid these genius's fault. You find i am a genius? Please don't try to come and acquaint me, you will disturb my life. Don't tell others, don't tell the journalist, i have already said, television, newspaper, magazine, all garbages, who likes to announce them find another genius now, that they will destroy him later.

If you don't trust that you can done it, how can you done it? If i don't trust i am a genius, how can i be a genius? So i must trust it, even just for maybe i am a genius. Boy, you need to trust you are genius too, i can tell you:"you are a genius", you can trust me. The different from enlightened or not is very small, every boy have the potential to achieve enlightenment. You are told that you are not a genius because your achievement is not good? No, you are still a genius, your achievement is much better than the young Einstein at least. You are a genius, always remember this, always trust this!

The different between you and I is not i am a genius and you are not, but I trust i am a genius but you don't.

I think those beautiful girls are very wise, they understand to do nothing, such as, just look at somewhere with her innocent eyes, this can kill any powerful boy. But, i am more wise, as i understand the wise of girls :) Have girls understand their wise by themselves? When i use my innocent eyes look into her innocent eyes, we both smile in the heart :) I will try to confirm this, that whether she is smiling in her heart too.

Oh, if it is true, then, girls are all geniuses too! :_) Human are all geniuses. Oh, this can be the truth! Human are all geniuses, this is why human being human. As i have said, everything have soul, then, the genius soul will turned to become human one day. After once being a human, what i want to be after the death? I will surely choose to become some other things, such as a stone, a drop of water, or a dust in the cosmos, as being a enlightened genius.

My thinking always astonish myself :_) You can treat this just as imagination, anyway, my imagination is not bad, Einstein said:"Imagination is more important than knowledge." I am more confident on my physics studying now.

Oh, i advise you don't trust me...You see, i just ask you to trust me in the precious sentences, why? Please make your decision by yourself, by your own thinking.

I know you feel not good, when a boy always laugh around you, but please forgive me, please don't forbid my right of laugh, i am not sneering you, i only laugh for myself, when you are not here, i laugh to myself too, and often laugh more :)

:) I can give you a powerful weapon which i find occasionally: You want to defeat him? Always laugh :) Laugh when he is showing his money, his car. He cost many years' toil to get these things, you break he by one second, just by showing your laugh to him :) You will find he can't laugh happily as you, because you have everything that he want in his heart, and he know the car which he have is not wanted by you, he don't want the car too, so he envy you and can't laugh about. Laugh when the teacher ask you to do something with his solemn face, and leave him :) But, to laugh naturally, you need to achieve enlightenment first :)

Good luck won't change your life, trust this, luck can't help you.

Don't drink wine before go skating :_)

When i walk on the road, i feel the earth is so steadfast, the road can widely extend to the whole earth surface, which is so wide, i look at the sky, it is so big, so deep, extend to the unseen cosmos. I can't laugh about. Who can laugh when he is facing the earth and the sky?

Go out, go to feel the earth and the sky, don't always stay in a room, or your view will be limited!

Your everyday life is not ultimate reality, the earth and the sky are neglected in your everyday life, the everyday life is just a world build by many people, it have no different from a world in a book, a world in a computer game.

2003.12.03
Start to read a Chinese book named "China philosophy history" by Feng Youlan, I find, these Chinese books can never translate to English.

"Evolution breeds not a single winner, but diversity."

Immerse into hallucination is a prejudice, you think the thing in your hallucination is most beautiful, but, the real world is most beautiful in fact. Look at the real world, feel it, think about it, how beautiful it is!

When i go out, i find a new world, the real world, i am walking on the earth, i am covered by the sky, i look at everything, they are new to me. I look at others, and smile. They haven't aware that they are dragged into a small world which they build by themselves, they are playing a game in all their life, they can find that there can be some other groups of people leading a completely different life from them, they are playing different games. I like play games, i am good at play games too, but i seldom play games now :)

I find it it hard to write down what i think.

"Open Sources: Voices from the Open Source Revolution" reads over, these man created the history, the legend. I find Linus Torvards looks very like one of my cousin, very familiar feeling :)

Everything make me laugh :_)

If i was born 2000 years ago, i will be more cool than Jesus, Buddha, Lao Tze :_) I will look at them, and laugh :) Because I know the thought which in their head too :)

Start reading "The Catcher in the Rye" by J.D. Salinger.

To be honest, i confess that i am a little making fun of you, sometimes, my laugh is a little like the laugh when you see a monkey wearing the clothes and doing something. You think the things what the monkey is doing have no meaning and laugh, i sometimes think... :)

Don't tell others that you get a good job which the monthly pay is six thousands, while others heard this and envy you, i laugh, because i begin to imagine a monkey become very happy because she is given six peaches everyday :_) Six thousands is very little in fact, if you can look outside you will find this, don't be contended by it, anyway, the right way is don't be contended by money :)

When you meet a old woman, such as your maternal grandmother, you have the feeling that you know what the thought is in her head, right? So do i, when... :_) Oh, i am sorry for these words, but this thought is very interesting to me, i write down this only for my own toy, you can ignore it :)

You can make your thought not being simple by reading books etc, there are many good books, you can find some titles in my notes, i list them in my notes is recommending them to you in fact. How many books have you read on your own initiative in the past two years? Zero, right? or half :_)

OK, you can try to read "1984" first, make sure that you read it over! :) And don't skip any one chapter of it, the chapter which you skipped is the essence :)

OK, it is here: http://www.google.com/search?q=1984 :)

Why the babies study the language so quickly? Because he turn over the books quickly, look for the interesting things in the book, never thought of grammar or try to remember the words. I am reading books in this way too, so i study so quickly.

Nietzsche go mad, Weininger commit suicide, I laugh :) I am lucky, that i read their books, not write their books. Then...

These thought have already sprout in my head, so when i read Nietzsche and Weininger's books, i understand their thought easily, and think they are right. If I didn't read their books, i must be me write their books, which will make my life as miserable as theirs.

I am confident, and I must be confident, this is directly related to my life. Nietzsche and Weininger are confident, they trust there will be a person who understand their thinking and agree with them 100 years later. My confidence is easier, there are two geniuses 100 years ago who agree with me.

2003.12.04
Oh, please, please don't think i am genius, i am not a genius, how can you trust the words come out from a child when he is dreaming, don't treat my words seriously, just get joy from them, or you will find you are played by a child :)

If i am not the genius, you are? Yes, if you think i am not a genius, then you are a genius. Yes, you really think i am not a genius, because, you are really a genius!

I would never think i am a genius, it is you make me start to think about this.

Don't peep at me :) Or you will find i start to laugh because the sight come out from your eyes, and can't stop my laugh when you move your vision away :) Anyway, both of us are happy, right? I am laughing, you are smiling, also i know you don't feel very good while smiling :)

Why i like reading literature books? Because literature books can cause me to think. So good literature book is the book which can cause others to think. Writer, you want to write a good book but feel lack of the material? Just record every words my roommates said in the daytime, you will find what a funny and good book you have written down. Director, you want to film a good slapstick comedy? Just set up a camera on the window of my room, record the expression and the movement of everyone who past the window, this will be the most famous slapstick comedy 100 years later, everyone who watch it will laugh into stumble as me :) You already have this experience when you are watching a film of 20 years ago, right? It wasn't a slapstick comedy, but now it is :)

Will the foreign country students make me laugh? Or only Chinese students? I want to acquaint foreign students, i will go to Germany :)

I think the civilization of other plants exists, just as the foreign country exists now. All the Chinese don't think the western countries exist ago, oh, now all of the human think the saucer man don't exists again. What? According to Einstein's relativity and many other newest theories, human can't fly out of the galaxy, yes, the theory which build the boat can't make us cross the sea, but the new theory which make this possible will be out soon. According to Einstein's theory, we can't fly out of the galaxy, so we should don't waste the time on it, so we should...No, so Einstein's relativity is wrong. Physical scientists, who focus on breakthrough the relativity, be confident, we will surely win. :) I will join you soon.

It is always philosophy to guide the science.

Why philosophers are not fond of sex intercourse? Because they know the climax is only the completely unconsciousness, consciousness is more interesting, you see, consciousness always make me laugh now :) consciousness will make you feel not good at first, but you can surmount it! Anyway, i still like sex intercourse, just like i still like eating :_) hoho, don't misunderstand, i am still a virgin boy, haven't tried the first kiss :_)

Schopenhauer want to be super Buddha? That Buddha told us to avoid sexual intercourse, Schopenhauer told us to avoid eating and starve to death.

More and more things which i said ago are confirmed now, which all of you treat as jokes ago.

I laugh loudly in the room, you ask me to go out to laugh, but, it will make a much bigger trouble to laugh in the outside :_)

I need to start to make my life to become miserable, or i can't become a great philosopher :)

I know i am only a ignorant boy :)

I like that girl, because she is as ignorant as me :) So, both of us like laughing :)

These happy is just so so.

You want to study philosophy now? I have told you to study philosophy at the beginning, but only after you are laughed by me you start to notice my advise, anyway, it is not late, start learning, start your thinking. I can be very solemn than you can imagine. Be confident, you can easily past me, i haven't much different from you, i have many weakness too, it is only that i tried to fix these weakness, you have many advantage compared to me, it is only that you didn't take it.

Keep your ignorance by learning!

I still love you.

Don't delete the garbage mails, collect them, they are funny and best jokes :) I have no time to do this, but you can start this project if you have time :) The mails which you deleted are more valuable than which you saved, 100 years later :)

Oh, you these professors, study Greek to translate Aristotle's books to Chinese but ignore me, who is in your university and stand in front of you. Anyway, Aristotle's books are good, but i needn't your translation, i can study Greek quickly.

"Kierkegaard thought Hegel had forgotten that he was a man." Yes, don't forget that you were a man! Many great thinkers make mistake from this, such as Jesus think that he is the son of god :) I also heard that Nietzsche think he is the sun after go mad, oh, no, Nietzsche didn't think that he is the sun, he is saying this to warn us.

"Aristotle held that there are three forms of happiness. The first form of happiness is a life of pleasure and enjoyment. The second form of happiness is a life as a free and responsible citizen. The third form of happiness is a life as thinker and philosopher. Aristotle then emphasized that all three criteria must be present at the same time for man to find happiness and fulfillment. He rejected all forms of imbalance. Had he lived today he might have said that a person who only develops his body lives a life that is just as unbalanced as someone who only uses his head. Both extremes are an expression of a warped way of life. ... only by exercising balance and temperance will I achieve a happy or 'harmonious' life." I think so :)

"If we do not question and ponder our very existence we are not really living."

Please don't treat me as a genius, or you will destroy my genius. Thank you.

Don't worry, I am only different when i am thinking :)

The workers in the dining hall who seldom smile smiles to me and try to talk to me, because he/she see my smile and know my smile is come out from my heart. Many of you think you are superior than them, think you are well educated and they are not, but i know i have more common to them than to you, on knowing our ignorance. Only a fool will think he become know many things only after several years' studying. In the other side, i was grown up with these ordinary people, they are my brothers, my sisters, i know their heart are more beautiful than most of you.

The affection is in my heart, but once you want to make use of the affection, you will find i am ruthless. "reason is human, and the heart is animal", but human will always be a animal... so the heart will always within me.

Is the Chinese government excising a stupify people policy? I don't know, but i am sure that my roommates are stupified(they are really very clever children), the teachers are stupified(some of our teachers were just graduated students, and after work for about two years, they become good teachers). I hope it is only the whole stupid environment make them stupified, but, i should trust, that the leadership of Chinese government are not stupid, oh, no, this is still possible, that the leadership are stupified by Mao Zhedong. Mao Zhedong are a very wise man, but i know i have already start to past him in many fields, his stupify policy may be right, this policy must be the decision after his long time carefully and deeply thinking, the policy is the most suitable policy for the new China, which make China society stable and develop steadily for 50 years, his ten years culture revolution is just the main process of the stupify people policy. Many people think Mao Zhedong become stupid when he is old, they are wrong, Mao Zhedong become more wise when he is old. Deng Xiaoping said seven-tenth of Mao Zhedong's doing are meritorious, three-tenth are fault, he is wrong, Mao Zhedong is much more greater and wiser than Deng Xiaoping, all things that Mao Zhedong have done are right. You may interrogate me that the ten years culture revolution is right too? For the long-term benefit, short-time backset is worthy. Oh, i haven't these thought before writing these words, i am going to write some other even opposite views, but these thought is come out while i am writing, while i am thinking, while i am reasoning. Mao Zhedong is a great man, he is a genius. I am the next genius, i am the real successor of Mao Zhedong, although my policy will be completely different, as my policy is enlightenment :) Both of us are helping Chinese, our policy are different because the China state are different. You will find i am very similar with Mao Zhedong. The ordinary people think Mao Zhedong as god, as he defeat others easily(such as Lin Biao), it seems that he know what will happen, yes, he know, as me, i know what the thought is in others' head, i know what you are thinking. My responsibility because very big now. What should i do? Maybe i should start to try to become the president of China. Chinese can trust me, after they know my grow up environment, after they know me, they will know i am the son of people, they trust their son. Or, i can trust Hu Jingtao, who become the president recently, who have the same surname with me :) If i become the president, i will start my enlightenment policy by reforming the university. The current stupify people policy is easy to understand: how to stupify people? stupify the clever boys, to stupify the clever boys, you need to find the clever boys first, China's college entrance exam have done the perfect work on this, then, the cleverest boys are collected in QingHua university etc., stupified there. One cleverest boy leaked from the net, he go to SiChuan university, where he don't go to classroom but studying in the Internet(they tried to control the Internet but failed) and start thinking, then the history changed, yes, history is changed by a small thing. :) I am dreaming. I don't know Hu Jingtao's new policy yet, China's current education system before the university is very good, he only need to change the university education system, this is easy, and haven't much dangerous, I will see the change of SiChuan university in the next years, maybe Hu Jingtao is not a genius, i need to tell him about this :) i think after the university students are not stupified, the society can still remain stable. China will start its most prosperous period in the history again, China have so many clever boys, and i think the western countries needn't worry about this, you can trust me, and China always have no inclination of aggression or war. These change may need many years, it can be very quickly too, i know my articles can spread to the whole world quickly.

I can say how the Chinese undergraduate are stupified here. After they come to the university, they are taught with the no-use things which they know these things are no-use too, they can study these no-use things, or go to play games, both will be stupified. They are given many non-sense things to do, they know these things are non-sense too, but they are promised that after done these things, they will past the examination, some of them can become the communist party member, they will become the upper class of the society, so they are willing to do these things, no dangerous, the future are promised, most of them come from the rural area, this is already a big change of their life, so they can be contented. And some other students are taught with technology or other learnings, they will be limited in a small filed in their whole life, can't start their thinking too. It is a circle, perfect circle, the new generation are keep stupified.

What should i do? you see, i am dangerous now, my thinking is going to change the whole world. Thinking is always dangerous, especially the thinking come out from a boy, because i have many years left, and all boys would like to listen to a boy. But you really should not take me as a dangerous people, i am a good boy. Both the Chinese government and foreign countries should not treat me as a enemy, i am the friend of you. I won't delete my old articles or hide my new articles, to show my sincerity. This is just what i am thinking, you can ignore it, or get inspiration from it.

My thinking surprised myself too, but when writing these sentences, i have no surprise, it come out, so naturally. Even these surprising thinking is out, i have no trace of exciting at all. I am still a lovely boy :) These thought come out from a genius is not surprising, this is a little like that the surprising thing happened in your dream won't surprise you :) When i am thinking, these thought come out, is not surprising too.

Maybe i should not only focus on the policy of a country, my genius can do many more big things, such as in philosophy and physics, yes, you know i won't become a president :) I should contribute my genius to human, not only Chinese, not only contemporary human. Einstein reject the invitation of being the president of Israel for the same reason :)

I am dreaming? I am not just get up from the bed :) i am very clear-headed. I am intoxicated? I didn't drink one mouth of wine today :) I didn't drink cafe for several months, which will make my clear-headed brain become exciting and can't sleep :) I have no habit of take drugs etc.

I find, if you trust you are a genius, you will become a genius soon, in fact, it is only that you find you are a genius soon :) I am not a miracle, i am only the first superman, the lightning suddenly come out of the black clouds :_)

I smile :)

The similar situation happened on China when it meet the western countries will happen again when human meet saucer man :) Human are great.

My work is dream :) Do you like it? :_) It is interesting at least :)

2003.12.05
When i am thinking, the whole world is in my head, the cosmos is in my head, the history is in my head, everything i know is in my head :) Everybody is in my head, every great man is thinking in my head, i explore this world by my thinking, i see Mao Zhedong, what is he thinking? i start thinking, then i understand what he is thinking :) Their thought is only a part of my thinking. Anyway, it is easy to understand those emperors' thinking, such as Napoleon, Mao Zhedong. There are many great philosophers, also i haven't understand their thinking yet(in most case, I haven't read their books yet), i am confident on this, then there are some other great man, such as Einstein :) understanding their thinking will surely help me very much, i am confident too :) Someone said, we are thinking in the mind of god, no, you are thinking in my mind :_) I am thinking in your mind too, when you are thinking :)

Don't neglect any small clue of your thinking, think about it deeply, then surprising thought come out.

Tang Hao start to worry about me, i know i may in dangerous. My thinking start to touch the China policy. Should i trust the Chinese government? I think the leadership of Chinese government are not bad people, i feel familiar with Hu Jingtao :_) Although i don't know what is Hu Jingtao thinking when he smiles, i think his opinion should be the same as me. I will just continue my ordinary peaceful life :)

I walk slowly in the room, look at my roommates, and think, i didn't know my thinking can get so high, my roommates are looking at the computer screen and saying some words, i know everything that in their head. It have no different when you look at a monkey, really. please, please don't misunderstand, there have no any trace of despising in my head. I feel a little sorry. Human can be trained to become monkey easily. Is it necessary to make most people become stupid? Only yourself is enlightened? No. I think Mao Zhedong and Ying Zheng(the emperor of Qin) are selfish, they want to be a great emperor that their name will leave in the history for a long time, the only way is to stupify others, stupify the next generations, they do it, and done this. I have no desire to be a great emperor, i have no interesting on this, Mao Zhedong and Ying Zheng may don't want to do this too, but at their era, they can only do this, so i won't criticize them. I won't criticize Jesus, Buddha too, in their era, the only big thing they can do is create a religion. If i am in their era, i will do the same things as them. Oh, yes, i am selfish too(i have already said this in my old essay, that human are selfish, and, genius's selfish often lies on immortality). Mao Zhedong, Ying Zheng, Jesus, Buddha all envy me :) I am born in the greatest age, i will done the work of enlighten human, make everyone start thinking, the biggest thing in human history, which they want to do but impossible in their era. I know i am not dreaming :) genius of geniuses. If you don't think so, find some geniuses to communicate to me, they know.

It is still very hard. Make all the clever boys become stupid is easy, make one clever boy be enlightened is hard, but one become two, two become four, four become eight, it can still be done very quickly. And, all of you are geniuses.

I would like to trust i am crazy, i would like to trust i am dreaming, but the trouble is, all of you don't think so :_) I laugh loudly. I am health both physically and psychologically.

Human should understand itself first, then go to understand the outside world.

If you go out, everybody's thought can be as simple as monkey in your eyes, their expression and movement all can be known by you(because you have these thought ago too) and can make you laugh, you get the same level of me, then lets do our work together :)

My articles are too funny, but all of these things are what i am thinking :)

Everyone of you know that human is different from animal is because human can think, but, are you thinking? you are thinking about food, house... animals can think about these things too.

Start your thinking, you will be enlightened soon.

I am just the boy who look at the king and laugh:"He wears nothing!", everyone will look at the world and start to laugh as me soon. I am only a normal boy, ignorant and innocent, so i can laugh. How stupid you are, to pretend you are not stupid, to just trust the words which many others "trust".

Genius must often feel that himself is a ignorance, i always feel i am a ignorance, know nothing, now :) So i learn eagerly. The different between ignorance and idiot is that idiot don't try to learn.

My work is laugh :)

I already know i will be the greatest man than every great man in the history. I learn everything, western philosophy, Chinese traditional ideology, nature science, computer science, literature... this is impossible ago even if you are a genius. And I have the genius on all these fields. I think i am especially good at psychology, i didn't read any psychology books, but i can understand my psychological development very clearly, this help me to guide myself on what to do next as i understand myself, then this make me understand what others are thinking easily, as most of their psychological development are behind mine, or on one path of my development direction, which i can also understand after my thinking.

Maybe the historian's main work will be "does Hu Zheng exists?" 2000 years later, just as now the theologian's main work is "does god exists?" :_) The answer of the first question is known by all of you, the answer of the second question is, jesus exists, not god.

Oh, how can i write down these so funny words :_)

These thought should come out from a boy who read books everyday in a dark room, but it is strange that i go outside and play more than all of you :_)

dear, dreaming.

laughing :)

I am learning.

I think everyone will have these thought when he is learning, when he is young, it is only that i have write down these things.

Qing Shiqiang give me a CD as my birthday present, it is made by my classmates, and give to everyone at his/her birthday, there are several songs which them recorded, i listen to them, and laugh, do you know what am i laugh for? I laugh for it can't make me laugh as you now, i already surmount it, yes, i mean surmount, it is still very funny, i still like it, but it can't make me immerse into it as you now. Don't misunderstand, I still being very happy, because my laugh is more happy than ago now, the happy which you have i still have, but i have a more high happy than you, which you never tried ago, and if you don't start thinking, you can't experience it in your whole life, it will be a big pity of you :) By the way, my birthday is in December 5 in the traditional Chinese calendar, so my classmates have make a mistake, anyway, i like this present, thank you :)

Among my roommates, He Mingxing is most gifted, when he come to the university, he help others sincerely, become our room master, take care of me when i was in the hospital for the appendectomy, then he begin to understand others, he begin to know others are making use of his help. He are very gifted, play quake better than me soon, play warcraft 3 best in my roommates soon, he understand make body strong is very important, and now his body is very strong, he know those courses is non-sense too, it is often only we two stay in the room and don't go to classroom. He can take a high mark only after several days' learning before the examination, i remember his database course mark is very high. In fact, he is more gifted than me, but he lack some momentum, only his computer have no Linux installed in my room, he is blocked by a small trouble, which he can past easily, but he haven't realize his genius and don't know he can past this easily. He watch many pornographic video, both of us watched many, but he haven't surmount it by use it to understand sex and then develop self-control and surmount it. He is a genius, i am sure he will be more good at computer than me if he start to study Linux, he will be very good at philosophy too, but it is he most hard to start to read philosophy books. It is most like that he will go to a normal place after graduated, his genius will be hided there. I am not cheating you, most of you have more genius than me. Now my body is stronger than most of you, but it is only because i train my body in the past two years, everyone of you can do this too. Wu Chuanghui know his memory is much better than me, but i have already recite over the CET-4, CET-6, TOFEL, GRE words, and now studying German, but he is still reciting CET-4, it is only because i persisted everyday. Everyone of you can do everything i was doing, and then done what i have done. I will try to chat with He Mingxing one day, open our heart, but he still need more time to develop his experience first(He often play games recently, this will help him very much as this helped me ago), then it will be easy for him to understand what i am saying. We are still good friends in our heart, both of us know this. everyone of you are genius, everyone of you have some weaknesses, if you can fix them, surmount them, your life will be completely different, i have many weaknesses too, it is nothing, just fix them, surmount them, i know it is hard, but spend two years to fix one weakness is enough, then you get the experience and other weaknesses can be fixed easily. I want to help you, because you are me, you are the me before i am enlightened. :) "enlighten" is a little too cool and mysterious, it is used too much in those religion books, but i can't find a better term presently :)

It is inevitable, the lightning will surely be out. Don't afraid, after the lightning, the rain will drop into the dry mother earth, the black cloud will disappear, the sun will start to shine to the world.

There are many people pursue the titles in their whole life, but you will find these things are not worthy to do, you are a important member of a club, you have a good diploma, you are the student of a famous university, you are a important member of a "well-know" association, you are a important member of an academy, you are a important member of... except that you are not a individual, you are supported by others, others need your support, you praise each other, you need to introduce yourself by your title, but not your name...If you like, you can call yourself as the master of the earth, the master of the galaxy, who cares, you known these things are non-sense. I am a boy :)

Saying myself as a genius is a trouble, then i must think as a genius, i am lazy too :_) But i know i must do this. You can be lazy on anything, but you can't be lazy on thinking. You these laze boys, start thinking :_)

Thinking is a virus, propagate in geniuses, i am infected, then i begin to infect it to you :_) I know many clever boys want to be infected, many clever boys want to start thinking. You see, it is not bad, after i am infected, my body become strong, i start to learn everything eagerly, i smile everyday :) I know all of you want to try the happy of philosophers :)

You need to decide by yourself.

Si Chuan university appeared a mad boy tonight, he walk from here to there, look at you for a second, laugh, laugh, laugh, laugh while nip his lip, laugh loudly in the square, laugh nearly stumble... Do you know what he is laughing? Monkey, monkey, monkey, this is a planet full of monkey! haha, haha, hhhhaa....

Don't worry, laugh won't make me go mad, it is good for the health :) I know my action is complete a mad boy now, it is lucky, when you see a monkey planet for the first time, you will laugh and can't stop(this is really happened on me these days), then you will become familiar with this, i can control my inclination of laugh now :) But it is still very funny that live with several lovely monkeys gossiping non-stop :))

Don't throw stone or books to me, or i will throw back to you.

I would like to move to the bedlam where i can laugh freely if you insist on forbidding my laugh, but i have a request, i need a computer that can view the Internet.

Don't worry, my friends, the things said in the precious two sentences is not happened, he only said that he want to throw something to me, didn't do it yet :) although he have once kick my chair and once clap my shoulder by a book :_) which make me laugh more violently.

You these stupid, simple-mind monkeys. Who is mad?

:_) I only warn you :)

Sometimes, i must do somethings, to warn you, don't make sure what you "think" is right is right so firmly, you never thought for a second.

2003.12.06
I awoke a 7:00, in the early morning. My head is very clear, then i start thinking.

Geniuses in the world! Unite!

Yes, the more my head is clear, the more clear i know i am the lightning that Nietzsche waited, the more my head is clear, the more clear i know i am the genius of geniuses that Weininger waited. I say the precious words, loudly, with my calm, clear head.

Geniuses in the world! Unite! The lightning is out! The first superman is born! The genius of geniuses is born! Follow me! Enlighten yourself! Geniuses!

Who is abnormal, i awoke at 7:00 and turn on the light, how normal my action is, but, but Wu Changhui don't "think" so, he "think" i am abnormal, why you get up so early? No, it is you, you these seven roommates of me, you these thousands of students in Si Chuan university, abnormal!!! Thousand of students in Si Chuan university, millions of students in China, billions of people on the earth, abnormal!!! Then, you all these monkeys, "think" i awoke at 7:00 and turn on the light is abnormal, all of you are not abnormal ago, when you are a child, you often awoke at 7:00 and turn on the light too!

I announce, if i am not mad, you all these billions of people must be monkeys, if i am not a idiot, you all these billions of people must be monkeys, if i am not abnormal, you all these billions of people must be abnormal!

I want to cry, as a child. It is you abnormal! All children in the world is the same as me, are the children abnormal? It is you billions of people abnormal!

Awake, you are being a monkey! You don't "think" so? Try to record every word you said today, try to record every action you are doing today, then spend one day to watch it tomorrow! You will find a monkey!

Monkey won't create anything in their whole life, what have you create? The computer you are using is not created by you, the clothes you are wearing is not created by you, everything around you is not created by you, you monkey. You take the material things created by geniuses, but you never take the spiritual things created by geniuses, have you read even one book written by the geniuses in the past so many years? You monkey.

Lbartoli's words help me, thank you. I know how big my responsibility is. I know geniuses waited me for two thousand years. I know it is only me in the world have the possible of awake human, because i am a child, they won't kill a child, they won't send a child to the bedlam, they all know i am not abnormal, so when i said all of them are abnormal, they will notice my words, then, start their thinking.

Am i exist? I exist as a real people in the world, in Si Chuan university of China, i have already said these things ago. Am i cheating you? Everything i wrote in my notes is really happened on me, everyone who know me know this. Am i pretend to think you as a monkey? My roommates know i am not pretending, they all avoid the sight of my eyes, they can feel my sight is the same when he see a monkey, they all become uneasy when i look at them, they can feel i am looking at a monkey, they all feel not good when i laugh, they all can feel i am laughing like watching several monkeys. They all forgive me, because they know my laugh is naturally, not pretending.

Please, human, become human first!

I have make a incomplete backup of my website at http://stardict.sourceforge.net/yaoguang/ :_) No one can stop this revolution.

I continue to write that Chinese article "My childhood" this morning, i want to change its title to "My childhood that seeking the truth" or "My childhood that haven't be thought of", but the best title is still "My childhood". All of these things are really happened, but i find, it seems never happened ago now, if you use your monkey's eyes and your money's thought. You know these things too, right? You can still remember these things, but you begin to forget these things, when you are becoming monkey, you begin to "think" that what you did in your childhood is valueless, although, you were seeking the truth in your childhood! Weininger said that the genius can remember his childhood at the very early and very clearly, i am. You have never see a article that can record the childhood so detailed, in the history, right? The genius of geniuses can. Everyone of you have these things in your heart too, the desire of truth is in your heart when you were born, but all of you forget it, lost your desire of truth. Why human are born? You are born with the desire of truth, the mission is given to you when you are born, but all of you forget your mission in your life when you grown up.

Start to recollect your childhood, write down it with every detail, you will find your desire of truth again, you will find you are a genius!

Every genius should know i am the genius of geniuses now.

In the past thousands years, all of the wisest geniuses devote their life on finding truth, now, the first fruit is out, the whole human will be changed.

I meet Li Yun when go outside to have lunch, she is a girl that full of love when she come to the university, just like He Mingxing, she open her heart, then get hurt, then, the most beautiful smile come out from her heart is disappeared from her face, when you meet her, she will pretend that she didn't see you, she don't want to show her smile to you, she don't want to open her heart again, because, she want to save her love in her heart, she cherish her love, so she won't smile to you, to save her love. I look at she, she want to avoid my sight at first, but i still look at she, i know my eyes are full of sincerity, she look at me at last, we smile to each other, our smile are come out from the heart, i see her beautiful smile again, i know, she must haven't smile like this for a long time. I know i helped her very much today, i give her a light in the darkness, which will help her go on her road of seeking the love. I know who am i. I am a boy who full of love, and have the ability to remain, to protect, to regenerate my love even after being hurt, i have the same ability of Buddha, I will use my love to awake the love in your heart, i will make the world full of love again, the love which you can only find in you childhood. In fact, i find some people ares hard to find their love again, they are poisoned too deep, or, they never open their heart, so never be hurt, this have some relation of born. I will go to help children like He Mingxing and Li Yun first, i have the ability to distinguish them form others.

I understand one well-know Chinese sentence now, it can be translate as "You are seeking her thousands of times among a big crowd of people. When you turn around your head, suddenly you find her right there under scattered lights." The people who are seeking love, can remember this sentences, after you failed for thousands of times. I think, seek for the truth should be likewise.

Let me describe He Mingxing's love here, he is hurt, now he begin to protect his love by never show his love as Li Yun too, i hold the CD which Qing Shiqiang gave me as the birthday present by my classmates, and want to listen to the CD on his computer, he say "No" quickly, yes, this is because he is protecting his love, but he realize what i want to do and what i am doing soon, he ask me:"What CD it is?", then let me to use his computer. Our heart are connected at that second, he agreed to talk with me without others some time later. Do you know why, the first reason is that i just want to listen to the CD which is my birthday present, but he can don't trust this reason, the second reason, which make him open his heart to me, is this: why i want to use his computer? Because i have no CD-ROM driver. why i have no CD-ROM driver? Because i have given my CD-ROM driver to him. I gave my CD-ROM driver to him about one years ago, because i advocate he not to buy CD-ROM driver, CD-ROM driver is useless now as you have the Internet, i can give mine to you someday, then i gave my CD-ROM driver to him one day when i occasionally open my computer box. He may don't trust the present me, he trust the me one years ago, who gave the CD-ROM driver to him for no purpose, just like the sharing you can often see between children. He know if he refuse me to use his computer, he is hurting me, he is hurt, so he don't want to hurt others, who is full of love as the young him, then our heart are connected.

I find i am not alone, so many geniuses in the history are within me, so many people in the contemporary are helping me, so many geniuses will be enlightened by me.

The different between superman and man is just like the different between human and monkey, the latter is different physically, the second is different spiritually.

Hi, philosophers, we can change our term from "Damn those pigs!" to "Damn those monkeys!" now.

Please don't forbid my right of walking around in the room. I know what you really want to forbid, you want to forbid my thinking, you want me don't be thinking as you, you want me to be monkey as you. You know, this is impossible. Please, be human as me, monkey.

I see more and more young children are doing what i was doing now, they will done what i have done, then they will past me, they will become superman as me soon. I will become a normal superman soon :)

It is not hard to become superman, just start your thinking!

Human is just grown up recently, which cost thousands of years.

When i recollect my childhood ago, i was completely immersed into happy, but now, i am thinking, i become very solemn while recollecting it, while writing down it. I know all these beautiful things recorded in the article have be destroyed when you grown up, all of the people i acquainted are leading miserable life now, all of them are hurt and don't know why. I will help them in all my life. After human are enlightened, they can continue their happy life after they grown up, the happy life that i am leading. Yes, you see, i grown up, i am still happy. Don't envy me, start your thinking, you will be enlightened soon.

Damn you the monkey, i know you don't trust me, you think i am writing joke. Do you dare to laugh in front of me? You will see my laugh when i see a monkey is laughing, which make your laugh freeze on your monkey face.

My words are as ridiculous as "the earth is round", I know you are "thinking": "what? I am a monkey?", Yes, you are. "What? the earth is round?", Yes, it is. You can drag me to the fire again. It is Bruno saved my life by his life.

I alway thought my memory capability is not good, but i know my memory capability is better than anyone of you now, i can remember everything happened in the past 20 years. After read George Orwell's "1984" and "<FONT SIZE="5">Animal Farm</FONT>", you will know "modern man was inadequate to cope with the demands of his history", you all begin to forget the things happened in your childhood, this is why you become monkey, this is why i can still be a human, become a superman.

Everyone i acquainted ago know i am a genius, some of them think i am Linux genius, some of them think i am a physics genius, some of them think i am a literature genius... Yes, i am, i have all these geniuses, to summarize, i am a philosophy genius.

I know i am at the most important period of my life, human is at the most important age of the history, although everything is so peaceful, i sit down here so peacefully, the most important thinking is generating...

I look at the mirror, he is smiling, his smile is so charming, the superman is so handsome :_)

I am in a mania phase again? I smile as a child :_)

"Genius is the ability to act rightly without precedent - the power to do the right thing the first time. --Elbert Hubbard", I am surprised by my genius, every word i said ago turn to true now, every thing i predicted ago is happening.

You can know more about me from here: http://www.theabsolute.net/minefield/genqtpg.html, read it! then you know i am the genius of geniuses. I am reading it too :_) The more i read, the more i confirmed myself.

Everyone love me, because everyone love the lovely child. I go to have supper, the girl who work there said to me:"It is always you the last one to come", i smile and astonish as being favoured, then it is always you stand there only waiting me to come and serve for me, "really?", "Yes", with her most gentle and sweet voice, and her smile is so beautiful. :) I only put off my timetable for half an hour compare to normal students, such as go to have supper at 6:30, this is not abnormal :_)

I have read over the "Quotations On Genius", have you read over it? Have you realized that i am a genius?

I needn't say i am a genius now, both i and you have already know this. There are several geniuses that i have already discovered, i seldom contact with them, but keep contacting, i won't disturb them, i won't ask him to start read philosophy books, i just encourage him to do what he is doing, i know he will pick up the philosophy books and start his thinking by himself one day. Yes, don't disturb him, or you will destroy the genius. About three years later, the next generation of superman will born.

Boy, be confident, you are really a genius, read "Quotations On Genius", you will find genius is not what you heard ago, it is just describing you, keep learning eagerly, you will find you are a genius soon, i was the same as you, i have suffered many reverses as you too, this is why we are geniuses, you have already done many things better than me, continue what you are doing, you will past me soon.

Superman is not the superman you thought of ago, superman is just the thinking man. All of you have the ability to think, all of you can become the superman, although all of you never think.

"Few people think more than two or three times a year. I have made an international reputation for myself by thinking once or twice a week. --George Bernard Shaw"

I go skating tonight, i walk slowly there, stand by the railing sometimes, skating peacefully, and think. What i have done in these days?
First, i didn't get any new thing in fact, i just confirmed what i thought of ago. 
Second, i believe i am a genius now. 
Third, i created the genius religion, genius religion is not a religion in fact, the only thing is that believe himself as a genius, more and more boys will begin to believe himself as a genius as me, after their deeply thinking, then, i think, all of the present religions will begin to disappear, as human are enlightened. As the genius, we will decide to devote our whole life for seeking truth, we will being thinking in our whole life, we learn eagerly in our whole life, we are philosophers, scientists, literateurs, artists...

I hope geniuses won't commit suicide, won't go mad, won't lead miserable life, won't be hide from now on, i hope the the creation of genius religion can help them, I will try to acquaint more and more geniuses and communicate to them, i think i can help them.

I think i didn't done anything in fact, these things is just inevitable, it will surely happen in the history.

2003.12.07
I am writing "My childhood" today, my face become very solemn.

I look at my roommates, especially when they herd together, my face become very solemn, being very grieved for them. Nothing can be miserableer than being genius but never being thinking, in all their life. If my commit suicide can awake them, i will.

Don't worry, i won't, as the genius of geniuses, i understand why geniuses commit suicide now. Geniuses, don't commit suicide from now on, we are together.

Boy, try to be silence, try to don't herd with others, try to read books written by geniuses, you should know, after you become silence, after you sit there alone, after you read books written by geniuses, the first thing you will do is start your thinking! But now you are doing everything to avoid consciousness, to avoid thinking! You are doing everything except thinking! You haven't laugh from your heart for a long time, right? You can only laugh when you herd with others, right? The desire of truth is in your heart, the desire to start thinking is in your heart, if you don't start to seek truth again, if you don't start thinking, you won't be really happy in your whole later life! Start thinking!

Don't herd with others! Genius does not herd with genius. Communicate to me please, by reading my articles, by thinking.

Trust me, that boy sit there keep silence. Don't herd with that boy who never read books, who can never read over a long article, but can always say out many words non-stop, he is the genius killer! Don't herd with others! You are killed by them!

Let me describe my roommates here.
Wu Chuanghui, the genius, is killed by Liao Jie, the genius killer. After they often go eating together. Don't go eating with him! Don't go eating with others!
Geng Junjun, the genius, is killed by his born environment, he come from the poorest rural area, he want to change his position in the society, then he have no time to read "A Dream of Red Mansions", the best Chinese literature book, he is given many books to read, he must take the best achievement in the examination, he have not time to think...
Wang Wenzan, the genius, is killed by his satisfaction of present life, eating, have a girlfriend to copulation.
Bu Weiming, the genius, after read series of shows for two years, poisoned so deep, he is in the world of teleplay, now like rock music and racing game, he can never get out of it, he is killed.
Zhou Zhi, the genius, he is still a child, but his environment is too good, no suffering, he will still be a child for a long time, then he may start his thinking one day.
He Mingxing, is the most promising genius that can be awake, but he need to avoid herding with others, or he will be killed soon, he need to develop self-control, don't watch pornographic video every night, you start to watch pornographic video because your desire for truth, but now, you have already understand sex by watch them, you can get rid of it now, you are using pornographic video to avoid your consciousness!

This is the decision time, to choose life or death.

Boy, if i am Socrates, you are Plato :)

I have already find several Plato.

I think Socrates won't be killed again :_)