22 years compulsory education
2003.12.01
2003.11.19
Academic philosophy
I chat with a philosophy faculty student yesterday. He talked with me about his interesting in philosophy field, and he can be a representation of academic philosophy. My feel is, philosophy to them is just a chronically poison. They fond of one of the newly school philosophy, or one of the Chinese traditional ideology, they only(yes, only) read philosophy books, they only read the Chinese translation version of those books, they read many books but limit in one small field. So, the newly thing, just as English, computer, is not studied by them, they haven't much interesting on it. They just dived into a small field, this is common in many others fields. They don't attach much importance to Nietzsche's philosophy. I like Nietzsche's philosophy very much, because when i am studying his philosophy, i am not diving into it, Nietzsche don't want to have church member. What is the different between academic philosophy and heroin? When dive into it, they feel very good, they want to dive into it always, but they must get out of it sometime, get money to buy new heroin, just as they often get money by sell heroin to others, the academic philosophy teacher can only earn money by teaching his philosophy to others, when he is out of his mental world, he is weak, both the body and spirit is weak, and, as academic philosophy is just a chronically poison, they can dive into it in their whole life, but they find them must be a professor in a university to earn some money to maintain the life, their philosophy is only theirs, no help to others. They are weak, they will be eliminate by time. I like Nietzsche's philosophy, because it make me strong both in body and spirit, strong in the real world, but not a mental world shared by a small group. Who is superman? the one both strong in body and spirit. I think i can become or come forward a superman, three months ago, i thought i can't surmount something which required by superman, such as love, but i surmount it now, I will surmount more and more, Yes, bogy ray will become the lightning one day.

Anyway, I like that boy, he is a good friend to me, he has many books, i appreciate he for lending his books to me very much :) I know i hold a extreme view sometimes.

RedHat contacted me about StarDict today :)

Most human is still animal, hay and copulation are enough for them, they don't need truth, so don't try to tell them the truth, or they will be angry(such as, you are pigs), they don't need freedom, so don't give the freedom to them, or they will starve to death in the forest.

It is impossible to love and be wise. --Francis Bacon. Yes, right :)

I feel very fine with my present everyday life, read books, studying German at night, thinking, do sports and go skating every a few days, the real world shown to me is very peacefully, very nice :)

Thinking is very happy, it always make me burst into laugh :)

There are many good books i read years ago, review some plot of them by memory, I can understand them piece by piece now, it is the happy of wisdom :)

I was a camel(develop free software day and night for two years), then a lion(attack everyone in recent months), and now i am a child :_) It is interesting. Anyway, i will turn to be a camel again in the next three years :)

2003.11.20
Skimmed over a philosophy history book by two days. I find it is easy to skim the Chinese book, Chinese is a good language :)

Find a interesting url: http://www.ibiblio.org/chinese-text/, ibiblio.org have many other good collection too.

How to create perfect love? It is interesting to do, although it is impossible :_)

2003.11.21
I will read all the teaching books of the philosophy faculty :_) Then the books of the physics faculty and biology faculty, I have very strong interest on these learnings, and very good at them ago, I get to know don't let the environment(such as not being a physics faculty student) disturb me now, and it is easy, just as what i am doing, acquaint the best student of the philosophy faculty, get their school timetable, borrow books from him, and you can avoid the trouble of examination, you can read other books from the Internet :)

I try to find some thing to do in Mplayer project, maybe i can do the port gtk1.2 gui to gtk2 work, if i can get time. The open source community is winning in more and more field, just as StarDict become the best dictionary and it is free, Mplayer will become the best video player in the world, it have almost 100 developer, every one is doing one portion of it, and is the expert of this portion, a property company can't employ so many expert, and, can't make it open source and free. There will be more and more nothing to do hackers as me :)

Read many biography articles in smth bbs. Who cares your affairs if you have no help to me? Most of them only helped their contemporary people, then, only the one who discover truth are most helpful to human.

"The Tao Of Programming", http://www.canonical.org/~kragen/tao-of-programming.html, it is a nice memory that Tang Hao and me read the Chinese translation of it three years ago as the passionate senior high school students.

"The Art of Unix Programming" read over.

Start reading "Free as in Freedom".

I think human have almost stop the development and evolution now, we controlled the earth, almost everyone contented with their life, good enough, brave new world. Just like honeybee. Then comes the doomsday without anyone sense it? Or, there must be the saucer man, and some other planets fit for human. cosmonautics is the most interesting thing, now it is controlled by government, one day it will become the hobby of explorer(I already hear that John Carmack is trying to build a rocket), just like sailing ago.

The human history is very short in fact, 2000(or 5000) years divine 100 is only 20.

h_falls tell me a very good popular science website link: http://www.oursci.org, and i like his words(advises) very much. he is a astronomy and physical master now, we were acquainted by the ReciteWord project.

Tried the newest LinQ tonight, it is very good now, but lack the users. I viewed Zhang Yong's Photo Album, his girlfriend is very beautiful and lovely :)

2003.11.22
I awoke in the middle night, and immersed into the love of the world, then the memory of childhood, it last for about two hours, then i get up and write down these words. I start to write a article about my childhood in Chinese this morning :) And I will build my new English website named "Hu Zheng's recollection". I totally immerse into it, when the beautiful childhood is over, I always need long breathe to escape from it, it can never repeated, these reminiscences. Review my childhood, i get to understand life more. And, i think i should try a new love, or i must be very regret that i didn't have my first kiss after the university period, and, i won't let anyone destroy my dream.

They feel very strange(nearly to be crazy) that i laugh to myself nearly stumbled all the day :)

Even i can't bear my laugh impulse now, dear, who comes and beat me :_)

My happy childhood, so many beautiful things, i write it for the whole day, it must be a very good article.

I like the song "Corazon de Melao" by Zhang Xueyou very much.

I smelt to my roommates when meet as go to have lunch, they don't understand my smile so tend to avoid my eyes, then i smile to everyone and everything :)

My childhood is too beautiful, i will take a camera and return to those place where i lived in the childhood this winter vacation. I love those place, I love those people. Just as said in Henry David Thoreaue's Walden:"Where I Lived, and What I Lived For".

It have 13000 characters now, I only write a skeleton of it, it will easily extend to 100 thousands characters. With some photos, i can easily make it as a book.

Life, life, oh, life.

Love can destroy any thing, it is right :) Oh, dear, i immersed in the love and happy all the day. But, i know, this is just a short period.

My classmates play computer games just as i play games in the senior high school ago, so it it better to play games in senior high school, then you have time to start studying in the university. Oh, these little children like games just as i ago :)

I like these classical musics.

Why the relationship between the university students sees very little? Because they come together with the beautiful hope of others, and don't content with each other after realized each other. So, they become to content with the current other or separate and improve themselves and come together again next time. I think the latter is better.

WarCraft 3 is a good game, but to me, it haven't much different from StarCraft, only the appearance changed, the happy is almost the same, and i need the new happy, the higher happy.

Innocent is good when he/she is a child, because it is true, innocent is bad when he/she grown up, because it is sham. icelotus grows up and still "being" innocent, this is why i lost interests on her.

Ignorance on a child often shows his/her eagerly studying desire, ignorance on a adult shows his/her no desire of studying.

2003.11.23
Good words:"Good hackers are good learners."

Happy every second :)

I find some interesting things to do: http://www.gnome.org/bounties/, i have told this to Tang Hao too, and he give me a very good German studying link: http://www.dw-world.de/english/0,3367,2547-0-0-S,00.html

2003.11.24
I updated my Linux system to Fedora Core 1 this morning, it is very good, I like evolution1.4 very much. I wrote a article about the installing and published it this afternoon.

When i hear the roommates' words, when i go outside and watch the peoples, their weak, their null spiritual, their non-exists astonished me. How can they be so ignorant? and even they are still call the "elite" as being a university student. One people have no different from one ant. They have nothing filled in their brain, it is not that they can't, but they don't. The present age must be the most important age in human history, human explored the whole earth, the science applied everywhere, Internet spreads to everywhere, and the society become very stable! No big war seems will happen after the invention of atom bomb, it is easy for everyone to alive comfortably...As stable as the ant and honey. Ant and honey have existed for million years, but never developed further in these million years. Human is likely become the same as ant and honey! That is, stop evolution and development. This is not good, you know. Human should surmount themselves! I understand Nietzsche's words now. How? The born of superman! There are example in honey in fact, as polistidae, polistidae should be the super honey, it is stronger than honey, i heard that one polistidae can kill all the bee colony, it is very individual, but they live together too. Superman are very powerful, they are very individual, but they can work together very efficiently too, the hacker can be a example, one hacker can defeat a company(such as the author of zip), and the hacker are very good at cooperation too! Will superman be the enemy of normal human? This should very like the relation between honey and polistidae, most time they live in a separate world. Hacker and the software company develop different software too, hacker won't develop those numerous garbage, they develop anything them need by themselves, and software company use hacker's software to develop other softwares too. How can human surmount themselves? Body training and learning are very good, but most people always stopped as they think they are strong enough, learned enough, although they are still very weak and stupid, but as all of them are weak and stupid, they can't aware this. Ant and honey can't surmount themselves, can human? Human should can! Science help human to build this stable society, but science can help human to surmount it too. Such as the human gene research, psychology. Human should begin to put more focus on researching themselves, but not the outside world. I am optimistic with the human future, superman will born!

I start to sense the vulgar which can find on adults from my roommates.

There is no wrong that tiger eats the pig, there is no wrong that i change them to what i think is right by my will, as i am the overmatch. They are too weak, they should be stronger.

I mail with falls, i should learn the physics deeply, but i should finish those philosophy books first, step by step, catch up the time.

Tang Hao tell me he is reading Liu Yong's essays recently, i have read one of his books in the junior high school, and now skim his essays, I find his main idea have already be contained in those philosophy books, but just being one piece of them, but is still a little shallow(as a drawer), and his method of educate his son is totally wrong.

I explain my opinion on education to your son here. Don't force your opinion on your son, just help him to do things he is interested in. The thing fit you is most likely don't fit him. I think why i can learn so many things is that my parent never force to teach me something, once my mother heard students should study hard and don't play computer which will make his achievement not good, then my computer is locked, i am very angry, i lock the door and don't go eating in the New Year's day, and fight with my father then, then my father told my mother it is wrong to force me to do something, as now it is prove by my resist. My parent never told me how to study, they never told me i must study hard, my father always help me to do what i am interested in, give money to me to buy books, buy computer to me when i want it, they allow me to play computer games, play computer, and i get much benefit from these playing later. How can you make sure your opinion is always right? old man. Don't force your opinion on your son, the next generation is always better than you. Let the sapling grown up without your scissors. Never suppress the humanity, such as play games in childhood, such as sex desire, don't you see, most student play computer games everyday in the university now, because they don't play enough computer games ago, this can't be suppressed, i have played many games in my childhood, so I past this state now, and start learning in the university.

One sentence in a philosophy book can extend to a literature book. It is always like this. Words in a philosophy book are all essence. Nietzsche's books always give me inspiration.

I trust i am right, the higher people i see, the more i confirm myself, because, i think i can surmount them, or i have already surmount some part of them after known their mistake in their life.

It is better that i begin to arrange my emotion articles, childhood and love, because, i should have surmount emotion now, the happy and the love. There is no good or bad about it, it is just the process. Now i review the affair with icelotus, it is very clear now, we were not in the same spiritual world, i past her level quickly, now, to me, she is(or will become) too vulgar in my eyes, i think she was not, it is a pity that she still stay in her old level.

Now the pornographic video haven't much effect on me, it is a little like watching the animal copulating, i should train my body more strong to strength my desire :) My will surpass my desire now.

2003.11.25
Our everyday life all are very strange, as He Mingxing play games in the day time, watch pornographic before sleeping, Bu Weiming watch series of shows for two years, and now get a work in the school which we think very boring but he like it very much, Geng Junjun often go to classroom to study and play "Super Mary" after return to the room, most others just have nothing to do, go to classroom sometimes, and i should be the most strange one. I need passion.

Male will only really grown up at the age of 28, it is right, my roommates are still all little children :) I find, when a man become a doctor, his age is about 28, this is not a occasion, yes, man should keep learning until grown up, most people didn't done this, so they are very ignorant. In the future society, most man will given education until 28.

I start to try the gnome bounties 2 days ago, but it seems i need another day to download the necessary develop packages, the network speed is to slow, and to access the foreign ftp, cvs is much a trouble, I need to ssh to cosoft.org.cn first, I know the foreigner can done this in 3 minutes, but i need three days, oh, but it won't trouble me much, i can do other things while wait the download progress. GNOME is working on integration now, that is, every application work together, share many information and methods, this is very good, the desktop is a integration, but not a mess collection of separate application as KDE :_), I am sure GNOME will win. And, i find, the idea of LinQ, as a instant message transmission application, is old now, it is the idea of 5 years ago, the world is changing, but Zhang Yong is still insist on that, the only hope is by his toil work, with he, a single people. I thought Zhang Yong almost as a heroic programmer ago, do the myicq project only by himself, but he don't want to open source completely, as Zhang Yong pursue many money in his life, so i exit this project at last, it is no hope there will generate a LinQ community if don't open the server's source code. Zhang Yong's heroic is just like many Chinese old programmer, do a thing by oneself, this is old now, Linus Torvalds is hero as he developed linux kernel, but you know, there are many people in the linux kernel development group, the author of perl is too, he is hero, but there is a perl community behind him. It is always the one who open win at last. Open source will win. And, i find, Zhang Yong become more and more similar with other normal programmers in a software company now, except that he may be a better programmer, because he didn't absorb new things in the recent years, i won't go the road as him.

Cheng Dou's weather is very good, i walk in the university in the afternoon, the mist covered the sky, everywhere is peacefully, if the air can be cleaner, it should be very good, i feel the air is not very clean, not clean enough :)

I want to do a BIG thing in my life, that can influence the whole human, a Linux hacker or a computer scientist can't done this, a physical scientist may can, but i think it is not likely there will be a big breakthrough in physical field, then, philosophy, philosophy is so useful, but most people didn't sensed this, if the philosopher's ideology spread everywhere, it will change the whole world more than science, if i can just spread and explain Nietzsche's thinking to the world, it is BIG enough. I need to understand Nietzsche's thinking completely first.

I go to skating at night, several workers(they are students too) skating skillfully there, i joined them, it is very interesting :)

I like the present life very much, the feel is very good, this feel is already surmounted happy :)

2003.11.26
The world is very small in fact, i am related to everything in the world in fact, everything influenced me, i influenced everything, even a star in the sky, have relation to me. I trust this. As said in "Poison for The Heart":"The air you breath in is breath out by me".

My roommate find it is always me get up earliest now, but i was always the last one get up ago, i never force myself to sleep to a fix hours, Linus Torvalds tell us sleep enough and clear-headed to work efficiently, yes, go to sleep when you want, and sleep enough, the only thing need to notice is that once you awoke, get up soon. I become to get up early after the thinking of that ten days, I just awoke at that early time :) And i think i got up late ago is good too, i need more sleep at that period as i need to develop software in the daytime.

Tiebing Zhang:"Try to develop self-control, which is one of the great virtues you can have."

Engels said that the movement is itself a contradictory, because when the thing is moving, it means, at a fixed time point, it is at this point and at that point too. Then, what is the different between this point and that point? I think it is the minimal distance, it like the minimal number, as 1-0.9999..., it exists, but you can't never describe this number exactly, such saying as 0.00001 is it will be wrong. I think this can extend to physics too, there exists the minimal particle, but you can't say the atom(or other particle) is just the minimal particle, the minimal particle can't be describe by practice.

Get the evolution-1.5 packages and installed them, begin evolution hacking :)

I read some documentation of evolution, and get to know its design, the separation of evolution and evolution-data-server, and its mail indexing system, then, i start to read the source codes, it is the GObject style coding. I find, when i touch the codes, i don't want to dive into it, I can easily know what they are doing after known the design, but i don't want to cost time on the detail, I have too much other important things to do.

How to make yourself become handsome?
I have read Nietzsche's words:"Nothing is beautiful, only human is beautiful. Nothing can be more ugly than a declining people", then I start to often look at my face in the mirror to check these words. These words are right! completely right. Sometimes i masturbate too frequently, then i see my face very ugly, sometimes, i find my face is very beautiful, such as today :) I controlled my frequency of masturbate recently, after sleep for two hours this afternoon, I get up and washed my face, i look at the mirror, my face is really very beautiful, the same face, when declining, is ugly, when you are healthy, it is beautiful. You need to train your will, then you can persist on run 10 rings etc. to make your body strong, you need to develop your self-control, then you can control your frequency of masturbate. Masturbate is not a bad thing, it have the same physiology effect as sexual intercourse, it can help your metabolism, when you haven't the condition of sex intercourse, you can masturbate when you have the physically sex desire, but, control its frequency, in most case, your body don't have the sex desire, it is only your mental sex desire, you need to control these mental desire, or it will destroy your body! You can read some books about sex, you need to learn these knowledge.

Wu Chuanghui catch cold recently, i didn't, if it is two years ago, it must be opposite. I know why he catch cold, because he didn't go to running in the recent months. Why don't go to do sports? Even he know the benefit of running, he choose to catch cold someday, he don't like the unwell feel when running, but that feel is very easy to surmount in fact, i always feel very good after running now. The trouble is, even you tell them the truth, even them know it is truth, they won't take it. I am sorry for this weak point of normal people. I remmeber G Shantz's words:"Damn those pigs! Don't pay them heed!", :) How to awake them? stop the supply of heed? It is not very good too, although this seems to be the only good method. I want to help my roommates, help icelotus ago, i told them what you need is just being hit, and hit them, if they are hit as much as me, them will be as strong as me, but they can't understand this, i don't hit them now, i don't help them now. Oh, the miserable life of normal people. How to help them? I think the hope is their children.

Zhu Rongji helped China very much, but the normal people can only know he make them lost their works, they can't understand the help. If you want to help them, you must bear the grudge of them when you are helping them.

I go the have the Linux examination, it only take me 5 minutes to finish it :) very interesting.

I am a interesting boy :)

Linus Torvalds have no money to buy UNIX, so he developed Linux and make it free, i have no money to buy StarDict and ReciteWord, so StarDict and ReciteWord will always be free :) Don't worry about money, you can always find the free one, and it is always the best :)

It is the rock music in the skating board, I jump forward, jump backward, jump, jump, and jump, beautiful girls all look at me :_)

Everything is changing, we should learn the new things, such as in mathematic field, it was focus on operation ago, give you a question and use the pen and paper to get the answer, it always need some technique, and learning these techniques need much time, but now things changed, you can use the computer to get the answer, it is fast, and many hard mathematic problems must need the computer's help, so, most of the old technique become useless now, how to program and use the computer to solve the problem is the thing you need to learn now, but, you can see, the mathematic examination in the school is almost still insist on those techniques, the world is changed, but they didn't aware it, still insist on the old things.

2003.11.27
Good sentences:"If I am not for myself, who will be for me? If I am only for myself, what am I? If not now, when?"

The world may be complex, but the world is only the world we perceived, as most people's perception is simple and limited, then the world is simple.

Where are you? My girl.

Stallman, the hacker of hackers.
"It was funny," recalls Moglen. "I said to him, `Richard, you know, you and I are the two guys who didn't make any money out of this revolution.' And then I paid for the lunch, because I knew he didn't have the money to pay for it .'"
"I thought I was going to be alone forever," he said. "I'm glad I was wrong."

"Free as in Freedom" reads over, I feels the very affinity with Richard Stallman. Devotion in the life.

When human is thinking, god is laughing. I often laugh when i see others' puzzle face. You should know why i am always smiling now :_)

I like drink a mouthful of wine when i want, it have the appetizing smell and very delicious :) I agree with Martin Luther's opinion on this very much :)

Human are very stupid :)

My roommates are still lovely children, as i said in the precious sentences, man only grown up at the age of 28, they are far from the age of 28, but they will push into the society soon, while still being ignorant, then you will know why the society is just so much as a mess. They should stay in the university and kept learning, or, leaning in the society, but the current China society don't give the chance of learning to them. Any country want to try this policy? That make the compulsory education extend to the age of 28. In the other side, the girls are already matured at the age of 18, so this policy needn't apply to girls. girls can go to work in the society and help her boy's studying, you have already heard these romantic stories, haven't you?

I would like to compare the two road here. The first road, go to work at the age of 22, as being ignorant, he can only do toil things, and at the age of 30, he collected some money, then, in the next 20 years, he can do some small things, but after the age of 50, he can do nothing but alive. The second road, he stay in the university, in fact, he is only really started his learning at the age of 22, as he no longer bothered by play games etc. now, then at the age of 28, he go out, and he can know what is worthy to do, and do the valuable things, he can work until 60 at least, but most well educated people can still do valuable things at the age of 80. It is easy to know which is better, but, reader, you may can't check this out and don't agree with me, as you are still being ignorant. Try to keep learning until the age of 28, until you really grown up, and then you will understand i am right and thanks me for this advice.

Those leaning are useless? To learn to read is useless to a peasant, but if he learned to read, he can no longer just be a peasant, then reading become useful to him. Philosophy, literature, art, computer science, mathematics, physics, biology, sociology, psychology...There are so many useless learning, but you should know, you will only find they are useful after you learned them. Start to put most of your time on learning them, boys.

I don't advise my girlfriend to learn philosophy deeply, i know she have no interest on it and can't understand it, I don't advise her to get a Ph.D. degree, but i am not despising her, it is only because girls are different from boys. In the other side, girls have many good things which boys haven't.

2003.11.28
Skim over a philosophy overview book.

These lovely children :_)

I laugh too much, i should be solemn as philosophers, but i can't hold to laugh and smile :) The world is beautiful, the people are lovely :)

Jiaying Xu tell me these words in a mail wrote in 13 June:"Take it easy, man. Once you get over it (well, it is not that easy for one's first love, though), you'll find there are so many nice girls waiting for you -- but you can pick just one :-)", and i understand it now :)

How to help them to achieve enlightenment? Most of them are likely won't attain enlightenment in their whole life. A Ph.D. education can help, but it is not the same, most Ph.D students still haven't attained enlightenment. But I know many books and good things can help, then spread these things is helpful, just like Kevin Solway's http://www.theabsolute.net helped me very much. I will build a similar website which collecting good things that helped me, but i need to learn many things first.

"For only reason can destroy heart. And why must the heart be killed? Because reason is human, and the heart is animal."
The Barrier:"... Then one becomes an individual, Never again to share. Alone in the world, without friend or foe, ... Be confident, ruthless, and strong. If you want to be free then make everything "Me". ..."

Children are always hopeful! :)

Start reading "Open Sources: Voices from the Open Source Revolution".

Internet is so good a thing, I am so lucky, that I can find everything I need freely and instantly in the Internet, I know this is only possible in recent years, how lucky am I. I trust a great age is coming.

I have nothing to develop recently, i want to start a new project, I thought about "Metal Slug 3D" today, it should be a very good project, i like this game very much ago, i will try this idea, and i can do it slowly, but last for 3 years.

Games have a limit: it always need new games. So the games can't last for a long time. Open source can make my game project last longer.

Life have only once, if you don't climb to the mountaintop but stop and lead a ease life at the mountainside, can you face your life at your death?

What to do? Do nothing. I have the same feel as Taoism.

If give you the chance and ability, do you want to do the GNU project? No, i don't want to be Richard Stallman. Do you want to develop the Linux kernel? No, I don't want to be Linus Torvards. Do you want to develop Quake? No, I don't want to be John Carmack. Do you want to be Bill Gate? Einstein? Nietzsche? ... No. If there exists god, he let me to choose to be anyone of them or death, I will choose death. If being one of them, then where is me? Death won't eliminate me, because death is one part of my life. So many people are doing things to eliminate himself, to be another one. If god ask me whether want to be god, i will say no too. What i want to do? I only want to be myself, to be me, but i am already myself, i am already me, then i need to do nothing. I walk there, i sit here, i develop StarDict, i think, this is doing nothing. What am i doing? Being myself, or, doing nothing.

2003.11.29
Once i find the Me, i find it can never be eliminated. Death can't eliminate me. Where i come from? When am i generated? When i was born, i was generated? Or when the oosperm conjugate? or I was inside the gene? The me is so miraculous, that it can't generate from null, it can't be generated, it is always there. The physical me is just some material, these material is there, always there, when the cosmos is there, the physical me is there, it is always changing, but it is always there. Then, the spiritual me, when i am a infant, i know nothing, i only being me, it is only a me, but it is me, the me, is there, always there, it is always changing, from know nothing to know something, from know something to know nothing, but it is always there. The me is not generated instantly when i was born. I can't be generated instantly, then, i can't be eliminated instantly, death is said to will eliminated me instantly, but it can't, as i am not generated instantly. I am there, after the death. The physical me is still there, the spiritual me is still there, the physical me may become the material in other forms again, but it is still there, the spiritual me may become know nothing again as before i was born, but it is still there. I never generated, I never eliminated. Birth didn't generated me, death won't eliminate me. I exist from the start, i exist forever. Where i come from? I am there from the start. Where i go? I am there forever.

I go out and have classes sometimes, i am in there, i am outside there. I watch them, and think. Have them conscious themselves? They have a ego, but their ego is so small, that they haven't conscious themselves. I look through their head, their conscious to me, is only a little floating smoke, it is there, but if they can't find it by themselves, it will not be there easily. I go out of the classroom when the teacher is still there, there is no rule to me, as i am not in their world. I walk on the road, i am in the world, but i know, the world is just in my conscious, my conscious is so big, that contained the whole world, my conscious extend from my head to the outside, contained the cosmos. Everything, everybody, is just a small part as in my conscious, a small part of Me.

A object is there, as its physical property, and it is moving, as its spirit. Everything have soul.

Somebody are hungry, what they want is only food, somebody are poor, what they want is only money. I see too many "poor" people. Even they get many food, get many money, they are still at the original level.

Don't ask me how much money i have, to me, it is as ridiculous as asking me that how much food i have. But i can tell you, i haven't much money, as i haven't much food too.

My father tell me when in his childhood, they want to have watch and bicycle. You have mobile phone and car? Don't show it to me, the program in your mobile phone is developed by me, you have a car? One Linux kernel developer is died when playing his helicopter. Don't pursue these material things, there are many more valuable things that you can pursue in your life.

"If you're going to read a book, make sure you read it cover to cover."

I know i will be alone forever. Once you find the Me, you will get this too. Do I have the desire of to be not lonely? If there is me, there is lonely.

Try to be lonely as me, try to be individual as me, it feel very good, and it is very good :) Be a eagle hover in the air, don't be a sparrow in the many other sparrows. You need to surmount it.

You must learn as much as possible when you are young, when you grown up, you can't learn more, you will most likely lost the desire of learn more! Be busy learning!

I go dancing tonight, dancing can't remove my consciousness now :) I pursue unconsciousness as you ago(that is call pig's happy), but now i am just opposite. The fresh girls are always more beautiful :) The next generation are always better. I look at others, it is very funny, that make me always smile there :) There are four freshly beautiful and lovely girls, no boy dare to come near them, they stand in a round and only play with themselves, looks very noble, but i understand it, and i am noble too, I join them and play the childish toy with them sometimes, very interesting, but most time i change from here to there, neglect them. Now i look at the beautiful and innocent eyes again, It won't make me fall into hallucination(although i still like it very much), I known I have surmounted it.

I have at least 60 years left, with the 60 years, what can't i done? Learn everything.

2003.11.30
I think i already past Nietzsche in some fields, such as friendship and woman, it take him a long time to understand woman, and it take him a long time to know that he can't have real confidant, etc. These things is very hard to bear at first, but it is truth, and you can surmount it, then everything turned to be very good. But, who knows, whether i really surmounted these things yet :)

If Otto Weininger didn't commit suicide...
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Otto was a brilliant student in high school (Gymnasium), exhibiting a special flair for the humanities. Later, he also developed a keen interest in the natural sciences and mathematics. He possessed his parents' talent for languages and at eighteen, apart from German, knew Latin and Greek, spoke French, English, and Italian well, and was fluent in Spanish and Norwegian. At age sixteen, he wrote an etymological essay on certain Greek adjectives found only in Homer and attempted unsuccessfully to publish it in a leading philological journal of the time. He was not, however, a model schoolboy. He frequently disturbed classroom teaching and followed his own inclinations in his studies, rarely paying heed to his teachers. "My pleasure in 'hell-raising' in class is my pleasure in chaos," Weininger noted in his pocket notebook in 1903.

Shortly after the publication of his book Weininger said to a friend "There are three possibilities for me - the gallows, suicide, or a future so brilliant that I don't dare to think of it".
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Television, newspaper, magazine, all garbages.

I have so good a family, my father, my mother, my young brother, they always support me, they can always support me, they will always support me.

Being a enlightened boy is so good :) Everything is clear to me, everybody is clear to me.

I look at the files in my computer, dear, one people cost several years only created a .tar.gz file, its content is no longer have any sense, it is only a file name and a file size to you now, with some essence only you know, you can remove it in a split second only by a command, then the effort of these years is disappeared from the earth completely, you will find one part of your life is lost. If you don't open source, this will surely happen one day, 5 years later, or 50 years later.

What is RedHat? RedHat is only RedHat, a brand. He can give you two completely different cdrom, but both saying:"This is RedHat". Once RedHat become something but not a brand, it failed. BluePoint is a brand ago, but now it is some other things, so it failed. If you want to set up a company, always remember this. IBM, Coca-cola, they can stand for so many years, because they understand this.

The child's smile is very interesting, you don't know why he/she is happy, it seems he/she smile for no reason, but he/she just smiles, and happy indeed. I know why, it is because he/she always discover new things in the world, such as new feeling, this make he/she happy, when i recall my childhood, when i recall the things read in a book, then by thinking, i discovered new things, and I smile :)

Wu Changhui is very interesting, I have teach him how to use StarDict for twice, the first time i see him select text by drag the mouse in Mozilla, then i taught him to double click, today i saw him input the word manually when reading in the Acrobat reader, then i taught him to select the text mode then click. I often taught others to double click, right click, middle click, Ctrl-D, "command" --help, man "command", google :) The answer sees too easy, but it is the right way. I get these small but very useful technique by others at first, then i learned to read articles or explore the software by myself, yes, the text mode button is there, but Wu Chuanghui didn't explore it. Boy, try to read those thousands of articles when you are learning Linux(I have read all the articles in www.linuxeden.com two years ago), this won't take you much time, one day or two is enough, but it will save you much time later, learn to explore every menu and button, it will save you much time later too.

I like drinking water, especially after go running for 10 rings :)

I write mail to the boy who just likes the me two years ago, i can see his curious eyes, i am very glad that i can help him.

2003.12.01
You escaped from Linux? Linux is making everybody to be a computer expert? Oh, i am a computer expert? ho, i am a English expert too, in a illiteracy's eyes, i am a read expert too. Boys, lets learn Linux eagerly, then laugh at those man who call us computer experts, who have no desire to learn. We know we are not computer expert.

The download speed is faster in Windows? I don't want to argue to you by technique. You download a very big, very powerful, run very fast, use very little memory and very stable virus-killing software very fast in Windows? Only spend you half an hour? But i done it without spending a second. I just don't download it. Look at the numerous files you download in the last month, I just don't download them. So i am faster.

I finished the German grammatic book, "Praktische Grammatik der modernen deutschen Sprache" :)

To the future reader: when you are reading my articles, you may find what i said is right, but you already know these things, why i say these obviously right things here? but, please don't take these things for granted, I see numerous people didn't understand these things yet, human is much stupider than you thought of. Everyone know the earth is round when he is born? No.